Tuesday, March 30, 2010

i think Mr Ng Ping Hwee is a super good teacher that concerns for his students! i went to school this morning and Mdm Lai passed me a note with the school counsellor's number. so i was wondering why she did that, because i haven't told her anything. after awhile, the counsellor texted me. she said that Mr Ng informed her about what happened to me and if i need to find someone to talk to, i can look for her. Mr Ng is super nice right?! i feel so touched.

Wanyee another one. She's darn sweet. she wrote me a note to encourage me and i cried upon reading it. love you lah. it's so fortunate to have a friend like you (:

again, i'm happy today cause i saw coconut (: but i hate someone. cause he said he wanna suck coconut. bastard him!!! >:(

stayed back after school to do chinese proj. we all ended up gossiping about Puyu in the end. she sucker lah, copy my idea. i was saying that peranakan is a form of amalgamation as it's chinese + malay, then she went to tell the teacher eurasian is a form of amalgamation. bitch!!! she sucks.

now the teacher wanna elaborate on peranakan after seeing our examples cause she thinks that peranakan is a good idea. but i think she shouldn't go through with us. otherwise the people who wanna do on peranakan cannot do on it, right?

okay. i better mug for my maths soon. i MUST pass my retest. otherwise i can dream about promoting alr.

MISSING COCONUT IN PROGRESS.

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Monday, March 29, 2010

i'm happy today!! i'm alway happy whn i go to school because i get to see coconut :).

i was walking and i almost sprained my sprained ankle. wtffff. and it's not recovering. how, what should i do. i got no more bandage alr, so i most probably will have to wear my tennis shoes tmr!!! nooo, it's painful :(

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Sunday, March 28, 2010

i'm home!!!!!!! so late. i'm having a hard time trying to bathe. seriously, how to not let my foot get wet?!

catching how to train your dragon tmr evening!! i cannot rmb when was the last time i actually watched a movie T_____T school sucks. busy with school work everyday. when i'm finally free, i only feel like cooping up at home!!!!!

i think i'm abnormal today.

i miss coconut!!

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Saturday, March 27, 2010

i was so dumb today, i fell down the stairs!!!! so i sprained my ankle and it's bandaged now. how smart -.-

i was late, so i cabbed to school. thanks to my aunty, who sponsored me!! the cab fare was 19.70 alright. so fucking exxxxxxx.

okay anyway the people (students+ teachers) in school made me felt so touched. they were soooo concern for me! thanks peeps! :D

one reason why i went to school today was, i really miss coconut. i wanted to see him. he's the first thing tht came to my mind for the past 2 days when i didn't attend school. and i'm happy thanks to him!!! although i didn't talk to him. seriously, actions speaks louder than words. and he asked why i wasn't in school ytd! hohoho :D

ok enough. the para on coconut is so long. goodbye.

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Thursday, March 25, 2010

i love all those peeps who comforted me. really, i appreciate alot. but whenever someone tries to encourage me by saying "letting him go is probably good for him... otherwise he'll suffer", i'll cry like shit. i agree with that statement, but i cannot bear to let him go. who will? even now i feel like crying. i cried again today, a lot. what would you do if you were me? hang on & struggle, or let go? i want to hold on to him... but i don't wish to see him suffer ):

i was still feeling better the past few days because there were smth for me to believe in and i trusted that he'll wake up someday, although i was sad like shitzxzxzx. miracles do happen. but now my bubbles (imaginary bubbles) and everything else is gone. so what to do. i don't think i'll feel alright for the next few days or probably, weeks. ): even if coconut were to encourage me...

back to schoolwork. i didn't attend school today again. obviously... but i got do work okay. i'm only left with a few qns on GP before completing maths. feel so proud of myself. and i'm gonna mug for econs tonight. ):

MY MOOD REALLY SUCK NOWWWWWWWW.



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Wednesday, March 24, 2010

i've got no more hope to hold onto... reality's just so harsh.

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seriously, when will i stop using comp?!?! i don't even have enough time to sleep yet i still wanna go online, kill me pleaseeeeeeee. i absent myself from school today cause i was toooooooo tired. at my max alr, really cannot take it. ): so i told myself to do maths BUT I END UP DOING NOTHING T_T. ok this sucks.

i'm in a bad shape now. both literally and not literally (what shit i talking?!). ok nvm, bye.

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Tuesday, March 23, 2010

i'm happy today (:

PW was at the library so we slackeddddd. the teacher stationed outside and don't even know what we're doing inside. hahaha. and guess what, the PW A level booklet was given out ytd and i totally forgot about it till this morning. so obviously i havent started on it yet. submission of PI in 6 weeks time... hmmmm. which topic should i take?

& we had Maths CA2 today. 3 letters, OMG. it's harder than CA1. i left the whole qn 1, which is on sequences & series, blank!!! it constitutes 7 marks of the entire paper. on that piece of foolscap got my name and class only. hahaha. fail for sure. it's super hard ): if i get, say, 15/50? i feel glad alr. must study harder for CA3 ): maths seriously suck now. i haven't tried memorising formulas like today before!! though it's only 6 formulas that i memorised...

& joshua's as boliao as usual. he can be my "don't do hmwk buddy" mannnn. i have so many buddies!! hahaha

I'M HAPPY TODAY ANYWAY. I LIKE ...

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Monday, March 22, 2010

i didn't cry today!! i almost cried when the doctor spoke to me... but i held it back. (:

i think Joshua's damnnnnn boliao. he msged me at 5am asking me if i've completed my hmwk. (i asked him to stay up all night to complete cause he nv do at all -.-) shock me like mad. he sent me smth like "you do your phy alr?". then all the formulas for physics started flying in my head and i had a physics nightmare!! wtf much. & i end up oversleeping for 20min! thank goodness i was on time for school, but i didn't tap card!! haha.

but he's really very boliao... he kept msging me in school when sometimes i'm just sitting next next next next next to him! funny guy eh him. then in the library, he suddenly walk up to me and ask "oi, your phone leh? nv reply my msg.". so i check. & there's 1 miss call + 6 new msges!! seriously nothing btr to do eh him. and because he have free sms, he sends multiple msges, like 3 to 6 of them at one go. but all diff content lah.

i jsut printed out the SS1 CA1. i go gong looking at the qns. HOW I DO MY CA TMR?! ):

I'M SOSOSOSOSO DEPRIVED OF SLEEP!!!!!

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Sunday, March 21, 2010

I'M STILL AWAKE!!! guess why... because i haven't complete my hmwks ): but at least i'm not the only one... i know some others are chiong-ing as well. hehehe :D thank goodness i'm done with some...

-maths 1.1 (50%), 1.2 (100%), 1.3 (0%!!!!!)
-physics holiday ws (50%), tutorial (0%!!!!!)
-gp (1 out of 5 boxes!! - 1box ~80words), rephrase sentence ws(0%!!!!)
-MT (reflection on text- 50%!!!)
-geog > totally forgot about it -.-

those that i'll have to hand in by tmr would be physics, gp & MT. oh, em, geeeeee!!!!! must work faster. goodbye. off to burn midnight oil!!

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supposed to be studying economics now... but i'm hooked onto the comp. OH NO D: and i've lost my economics notes when i have econs ca next week. pro or what. lucky got guide book.

anyway FB made me quite happy. k, i'm living in a world of my own again.

my eyes are pinkish cause idk, i think i need sleep. but i've been sleeping for 12 hours everyday, EXCLUDING naps. so i think i spend at least 15hours sleeping everyday. no kid. but probably it's because i'm crying everyday now... because something's happened ): & i'm living in my world, AGAIN, thinking no, things will turn out right somehow.

okay i really must get to my econs now. GOODBYE.

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i dreamt of coconut 2 days agoooo. dream of him = good. but the details of the dream = no good. but whatever. it's the 5th dream and the previous 4 dreams were positive dreams!!

another bad day. i'm like struggling with my work. but not really struggling. i'm stuck with maths. every qn can only do half way, & thats it. why did i even take H2 maths in the beginning. physics not so bad. but ever since i had that test, i forgot how to do uncertainty and everything alr. except for vectors. hahaha! good thing i still rmb what is cos rule!! need to study economics and do my gp asap!! AND UNDERSTAND MATHS. i must let mr ng know that i'm not a slackerrrrrr. hahaha (but i am one).

soemtimes i really wonder why is my bro so immature. ): i wish to squeeze some maturity into his head!!!!

kay, back to watching tv. study again later!!!!!!

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Friday, March 19, 2010

i had to make one big decision of my life ytd. there were choices A & B. i very much wanted A, but i couldn't, and chose B instead. it doesn't only affect me, but as well as everyone around me. everone would have to encounter this in life... but i didn't expect it to be so soon. i thought it would be only 20 years later or so... this is the first time i didn't want to tell anyone about it. but i know i have to tell someone otherwise i might be so sad that i'll go crazy. so, thanks aym for listening to me, although you're either watching tv or playing comp while listening to me all the time.

NUH tonight, again.

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Thursday, March 18, 2010

i'm so reluctant to wake up this morning. because the first thing that came to mind was I HAVE TO STUDY MATHS. D:. & i realise i dont have much time left!! Maths CA next tues. so i have, thurs, fri, sat, sun & monday to study. minus today cause half a day's gone and monday cause there's school and i'm left with friday sat and sun!!! SOMEONE KILL ME PLEASE. worst worst worst thing is, idk where to start from! i'm like lagging behind too much alr. everyone's finished with 1.3, but i'm still at 1.1! :( and aside from studying maths, i have to study econs too!! CAUSE ECONS CA NEXT WEEK TOOOOO! not mentioning all the hmwks i have. chinese, geog, maths 1.1to1.3!!!!!!! there's like approx 50 maths qns waiting for me? I WANNA CRY ALR ):

okay i just saw CP's message. THERE'S APPLE (camp group) OUTING TMR. should i or should i not go? if i were to go, another day less for me to study!!! ): i wanna goooooo. how.

this very bad thing struck me ytd when i reached home. but i dont feel sad. when i think usually people would cry their asses off. i think i really need to see a doctor.

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Wednesday, March 17, 2010

in my last post i said i'd study for physics. but i end up sleeping all night! and it's a good thing. because the test was... miss lim gave us 10min to complete it. then 3 min to DISCUSS with our grp members our ans. so i copied ruijing's and nicholas's! hahaha. and we got 4/5 correct! (: i got smart buddies. hehe.

and before that, we changed phy grp. my initial grp was wanyee, ernest kok + chew peng. we had to sort of handshake goodbye to all our grp mates. and we end up playing 4-person-PEPSI-COLA! i won for the first time okay. cause ernest was like "HAHA I WON!" but he forgot my thumb was free. so i pressed and shouted"YAY I WON". okay, super lame. so everyone was praying "i dont want noel and puyu in my group". in the end, puyu and noel are in the same grp! and the other 2 person suay lah, since it's 4 in a grp. it's like hitting 2 lottery at one go! and because of this changing grp thing, cheryl and wanyee almost leaked my secret!! i hope it's still safe in the bag ):

i'm glad that i'm in my current grp. of course my initial grp was good as well. current grp got ruijing leh! can laugh like mad :D

i think i wrote too much on physics.

then we got back our econs essay. LIKE FINALLY. other classes got theirs back like 10 years ago lah. i scored 3/10!!! hahaha! i dont feel ashamed telling my grades eh. because it's like the average score in class! so many of us scoring 3. Eindra damn pro, she scored 6!! must learn from her.

okayokay. im gonna go back to SAC later. CANT WAIT!!!! i wanna see Mr Tan, Ms Voon, A.Lim and so many others!!!

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Monday, March 15, 2010

today sucks ttm. but i dont see why i should elaborate. so let the qn marks float in your head!!!!
okay la. i'm super upset. so i cannot be bothered. i didnt expect myself to be so depressed either.

i'm deprived of sleep, but i cannot sleep again. because there's a 10min phy test tmr! like what chinese says..."台上一分钟，台下十年功". for that 10min, i'm gonna spend at least 2 hours revising. i cannot afford to fail. JC's sososo unlike secondary. if you fail in secondary, you can still promote. but in JC, you cant.

did i mention, i got back my physics test paper today? the score ain't fantastic... instead, i should say drastic. but i'm glad with it. the highest in class is like, 9/20? and i got 7/20. not so bad rightttttt. there are many others scoring lower than i do.

oh and, this is the first time in my life i see so many pimples on my face!!!! grrrr. its not alot, but i dont grow pimples. wtfx10000. i go through puberty late or what?

okay lah. back to mood swing again. goodbye.

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Sunday, March 14, 2010

i'm living in self denial. i kept telling myself, no, things would turn out positively. but when i think of whats really happening, i wanna cry. how, someone save me please.

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feeling very sad. but what to do.

i feel like an idiot letting my emotions manipulated by someone else.

shall bury myself with hmwks ):

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thumbs up for the day! (:

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Friday, March 12, 2010

hawhaw, IM BACK FROM CAMP!!!!!!!! shall just write about those woth-mentioning happenings.

1. 1st night
We all slept in tents that could fit about, say 20-30 pple? i was sleeping like a PIG cause it was so cold. then sheralynn woke me up and ask me to run. because it's gonna rain. i stood thr aimlessly then i saw the poles for the tent FLYING. so i thought "shit, the tent's gonna collapse", i took my stuffs and zhao! i wasnt drenched but the others were cause they're slow. hehehe. so sheralynn, cheryl and i ran to the toilet to hide. some pple were hit by the collapsing tents. can imagine not, the tent is so huge.

after we ran into the toilet, alot of other girls came in too. after a while, the teacher came and ask us to board the bus to go to the hall to sleep. THE HALL IS AT ELSEWHERE. so i ran out lah, thinking sheralynn would run with me. but when i run and turn around, she's still under the shelter -.- so i stood there and got wet. i took out my poncho for nth and bit it in my mouth, since i got no hands. my slipper came out, cheryl picked up for me. and since i got no hand, i threw everything onto the bus unglamly then moved in. hahaha. super paiseh okay.

2. wakatobi trail
nothing much about the walk. whats worth mentioning is, I GOT BITTEN BY A IDK-WHAT-INSECT AND MY HAND SWELL. stupid insect ): thank goodness there's a doctor standing by there. so i lived with the swollen hand for 2 days.

3. photo taking
everyone squeezedddddd so closely that someone went to pinch gary's ass. gary thought was me who pinched his ass so he shouted. his whole class "oi" me and i started crying. the fucker that pinched his ass still could come to me and say "woah steffi, naughty girl ah, pinch pple's ass". fuckerrrrrrrr. how i wish i could box him >:(

4. coconut
I LIKE MY COCONUT (:

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Monday, March 8, 2010

same thing like friday again. i've been sad for 1,2,3, FOUR DAYS! i dont understand why show me the black face ): during gp the teacher asked me how the presentation of other grp was, i replied "OH, very good lor." because i wasn't in a good mood and was stoning. everyone laughed but one person gave me black face. why ): i've been moody for 4 days alr, i wanna laugh.

camp tmr. not looking forward to it. & i doubt i can pass my phy.

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Sunday, March 7, 2010

a little story before i really go off to study my physics, AND DO MY ECONOMICS REFLECTION. (because i think a compo on cockroach is really, ahem) & i'm motivated by my own compo okay. just that it's not well-written & i have messy handwriting. click to enlarge!




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i'll blog a little since i'm trying to relax -.- I'M GONNA STAY UP WHOLE NIGHT TO STUDY PHYSICS. GREAT OR WHAT? the last time i did this was during Os. sucks ttm. but no choice, since i cannot focus in class and day dream all the time!! so far i'm only done with vectors. PRO NOT. i left the whole vector qn out during Os eh, which costed me 4marks. wait, or is it 6 marks? ):

there's still like.... lne+log, base&derived units, prefixes, systematic/random errors, accuracy&precision, uncertainty to go through!! omg, i'm left with approx 6 hours. can i do it? or i can't?! i really hope to pass my test tmr, or even better, SCORE WELL!!!!! i cannot do well only for chinese, cause it's bullshit.

my mood sucked like hell couple of hours ago. because of somebody's msn nick+pm!! bastard, so upset over it ): i almost cried somemore.

oh and, if you're wondering why i didn't study in the morning... it was because i went out. I SPENT OVER $100 TODAY. for camp and stuffs -.- suck.

ALL I CAN SAY NOW IS,
SUCK!

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Saturday, March 6, 2010

i'm feeling so sad + confused still. i wonder why stone is avoiding me!!! ): i've just spoken to ym and elith. so i came up with a conclusion : because i showed him super black face the entire day so he return me a with black face too. but, is this the real reason?! ): ym asked me to rant here, but not like i would write the whole story. i feel insecure.

ANYWAAAAAAY, i went to EastWood today. i almost forgot how to walk to my old house alr. i had ice-cream from ice-cream gallery. no longer like the ice-cream there anymore ): kind of suck. or probably it's because of my mood. so i hang around there for 3 hours, since weiting was working there.

i ran 2.4km today! to train my stamina. and i can run 1.2km without walking alr (:

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Friday, March 5, 2010

today was quite a terrible day for me, really. it wasn't so much about the lectures and school work, since it's the same everyday. but someone made me depressed ): totally ruined my presentation as well. how, i cannot get over it.

monday would be physics test. idk how i'm going to manage, but i've gotta pass. i dont want another zero ):

mr syn wasn't in school today so we didn't get our econs essay back. but i guess our ctg did very badly as well...

i've alr gotten back my cockroach chinese essay which i had handed in ytd. omgx100, i did quite well, for a first timer writing a JC essay. hehehe. scored 43/60, approx 71%. i was expecting much lower, like 35? since i only wrote 1.5 pages. so i calculated the total % i've gotten for chinese so far. it's 75%!! A grade, on the dot. (:
bee worksheet - 17/30 (these worksheets sucks)
tattoo reflection - 15/20
idioms test - 30/30
essay - 43/60

HALLELUJAH!!!!

but i'm still unhappy cause someone's avoiding me. ): (i think)

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Thursday, March 4, 2010

I'm done with planning what i wanna say for GP presentation tmr. Hallelujah!!!!!! ): i need to speak for 2 mins, but i have only 2 slides (for myself, there's 21 for the grp in total), so i kind of worried. but that 2 slides could last me for 3.5 mins. WOOHOOOOOOOOO. thanks to weiting for giving me examples on how to do presentation. pro uh, poly student. all i'll do is to elaborate on the points. it's going to be so dumb.that fabian nv reply my sms whether if he wants me to print out the slides to practice tmr >:(

idk to feel sad or what now. i wish what i thought isn't what i thought ): i cannot help ittttt ):

the school's food made me have diarrhoea again. it was since ytd morning that my stomach ached. thank goodness mrs george was so understanding today that she let me rest during PE. hohoho, love her.

i'm getting back my economics graded essay tmr. cross fingers!!!!

i wrote on cockroach for my chinese compo today. weird, but unique!!!! HIGH SCORE PLEASEEEEE (: i got 30/30 for my idioms test. woots :D so far, it's only chinese that i passed all my graded assignments. got 4 and passed 3 (with not so bad colours). the last one is the compo, getting back tmr.

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Tuesday, March 2, 2010

supposed to be sleeping now but heck. i had a dream of the same person again ): i feel so sad now.

i was late for school this morning. only reached at 7.50am. okay, not too bad. since school starts at 7.45am. thanks to that stupid bus 39 lah. came so late + packed that i couldn't board. the teacher that caught me was mr ng. so he said this during maths lesson "woah, you cannot do maths and late for school somemore. you'll be my fave student and you'll score well". omg k. i must do hmwk from now on. anyway today he started on AP and AP is EASYYYYYY. compared to 1.1.

i must learn how to do lne and log ASAP. know whats asap not?! >:(

chinese compo writing tmr. grrrrrrr. and i havent finish my geog ):

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