Thursday, April 29, 2010

i only went for maths class today!! only... but omg, vectors is f-ing easy. i think i suddenly see enlightenment and life's gonna be good for me soon (: first smiley face after a thousand sad faces. i feel that the days when "no need study for maths also can score A" is coming back. ok, maybe i'm just having illusions.

but thank god i went for maths today. Mr Ng announced our CFCAT2 marks. all the girls KO-ed except for janette. hawhaw. before that he said "if you get below 15 marks ah, you really very jialat alr" ( this IS how he speaks. he still uses phrases like "bloody hell"and words like "damn" too! and he's the dm.) so when i got to know my marks i was so happy that i literally jumped. because i got 16. LOL. it's definitely not fantastic. how can 16/50 be good. but at least i didnt get 15 and below. HAHAHA. i was thinking of passing. and francine they all went -.-"" when i told them i thought i could pass. because during the 1 hour break before the test i was sleeping like a log. hehehe. and mr ng commented that my graph all wrong and anyhow draw one. how can it be?! those are from my GC lor-.-

francine and i went to inter tgt to go home. but we end up eating long john tgt cause i wanted to tabao and she was tempted!! hehehe. and i spotted nadz!!!!!! (: then francine and i went popular and did stupid stuffs like looking at rhymes for kids and say out loud and laugh out loud! i think i have deprived childhood man. so many rhymes i never heard of before. and i miss those days when i read enid blyton's books! they were so... fantabulous. it's like fantasy + adventurous and soooooo exciting.

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i feel so much like crying ): it's as if i'm running away from reality when i run away from school. in my head i'm still thinking "IF only i worked hard for Os, i wouldn't end up in YJ". but that's only IF. i know i'm stuck in YJ for the next 2 years (3years if i retain) and can do nothing about it! i wanted to redo my Os but everyone told me not to. ): i envy zhiting, joy, rekha, rachel, all of them so happily in poly enjoying their lives and i'm here all depressed and fretting over school work ):

i'm trying to sleep as much as possible now. i even reduce the time i use comp from 3 hours to 15 min!!!! thats like more than 10x lesser! but i realise whenever i sleep a lot, i would want to sleep more and end up pon-ing school the next day. so no more 8 or 5 hours sleep on weekdays. only 7 hours!!!!!! i know i'll still be tired, but what to do. and so far i've alr absent myself for exactly 10 days and late for school for 4 times!!! jialat x1000000. i PROMISE i won't pon school again until... at least till june holidays. and i shall not exceed 15 MCs for this year >:( but it's very big improvement from last year alr, when i pon school every tues and thurs for sure! and i'm forever sleeping in class... but i havent slept in any lectures/tutorials so far! except for dozing off, but i tried to keep msyelf awake. -.- especially during geog. not my fault cause the teacher has got some hypnotising powers!

i'll do super well for my block tests and show all those peeps that think i'm stupid/pon school cnt achieve good results wrong. i think they would have end up in ite if they were in my shoes ): who would have jumped from a F9 to an A/B with just a or twos day of hardwork?!

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Wednesday, April 28, 2010

OMG I DIDNT BLOG FOR MORE THAN A WEEK!!!!! ok, i didnt even wanna blog today, but i just skipped school. life is simply tiring. i slept for 15 hours straight!! cause i've been lacking of sleep.

and i'm finally done with my PI draft 1!!!! other classes alr done like 5 but mine only did one. thanks to the teacher lah. hopefully i did well and just need to edit abit ): otherwise i really can say byebye to my pw alr.

maths- not so bad. the chapt on CF is ssooooooo much better than SS. maybe i can pass my CFCAtest2... expecting a boderline pass or fail ): and mr ng's starting on vectors today and i'm not in school. but whatever. i'm collapsing sooner or later, how cn i not sleep?!

i cnt wait for this weekend. 3 days no school!!!! WHOOOOOOOHOOOOOOO.

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Tuesday, April 20, 2010

i'm so gonna plunk into my bed after i bathe!!! i cannot take it anyore ): i think i really was a superwoman to go without sleep for that few days doing Os, not to mention i had to focus when doing my f-ing papers! i'll never wanna do that again, i almost died ): okay i'm gonna bathe and sleep!!!! who cares if i become fat for sleeping after i eat, just for once. (maybe not once, but just a couple of times)

& luckily i didn't study alot for maths. cause it wasn't even a test! more like a revision/ class work -.- ok and i think i'll fail/pass boderline for geog cause i studied the wrong stuffs and FAIL PHY LIKE SHITZXZXZX. when i finally found out whats "s", the teacher said "TIMES OUT!!!". what luck.


I'M SO UNHAPPY WITH MY LIFE ):

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Monday, April 19, 2010

i miss the past so much man. only if time would stop ):

life sucks so much when there's only 24 hours/day, trying to squeeze time for school, homeworks, revisions and sleep! only if time were... passing slower ):

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Sunday, April 18, 2010

I NEED TO WATCH MOVIE.
I NEED ENTERTAINMENT.
:( :( :( :( :( :( :(

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Saturday, April 17, 2010

i'm gonna sleep in... 10 mins time. hopefully, hope i won't play comp tmr. because i have 3 tests next TUESDAY. ALL ON TUESDAY!!!!!!! so i have to mug. it's not class test, but CA. wtf ttm. how can i have geog, phy and maths on the same day! i'm totally clueless for phy and math, and i have to memorise 5 cm thick notes for geog. what should i do. JC sucks man.

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Thursday, April 15, 2010

i would rather take O levels than being in JC! seriously, if you think O level is tough, YOU'RE SOSOSO WRONG. O levels is chicken feet, JC life is.... a million x chicken feet. unless you're super hardworking, i advise you not go JC! my grades are so discouraging and most probably would retain. but i don't understand why i'm not sad! usually i would have cried my heart out alr ):

indeed, i'm working harder compared to last year. but still very slack. uhhhhh. for the past few days, i've been sleeping, sleeping and SLEEPING! fuck man ):

i have mt compo, maths and econs to do tonight! BETTER FINISH!!!!!

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Wednesday, April 14, 2010

is it true that when one goes into a relationship and he/she will neglect her/his friends!? i think my friends are so.... but i swear i'm going to try to NOT. provided i get into a r/s (which i highly doubt i will). cause i get pangsehed all the time now. and there's this fucking guy. he got his gf then dont want best friend alr!! bastard. from talk almost everyday to never talk anymore for weeks. damn >:(

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Tuesday, April 13, 2010

i hate this stupid person in class >:( suckerrrrr!!!!! TTM somemore!

okay i went acupuncture just now for my sprained ankle. damn @&#@^#@^#(&*. no comments. was so painful that i cried. it wasn't the needle that hurt the most, but the veins were straining! but fascinating enough, my swell went away and i can move my ankle more now!! wooohoooo. pray i recover soon and no more acupuncture! and i have a month of mc from PE :D kay, neither good nor bad.

i'm starting to like coconut again! :l

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Monday, April 12, 2010

one thing i realised. i use 1 pad of foolscap paper every month! seriously ): i rmb those days when i were in primary school, 1 pad a year! sigh. feel so lethargic to buy foolscap pad every now and then.



i have... maths CF 1.1, 1.2a and 1.2b to do. wtf ttm. who ask me to be so lousy ): i cannot imagine myself taking CF test end of this month. and physics kinematics test next week, also HANDING UP PI!!!!!!! i think i've chosen the wrong topic for PI ):



seriously school sucks and there's nothing i can do. it's not like secondary school where i can be rebellious and pon school everyday, not do homeworks and break school rules. ):

i'm starting to talk to coconut now. no smiley face. cause i'm really so tired, of everything. the issua about my dad still revolves in my head everyday. i'm sure it's not easy for my brother now either. but nevertheless, talking to coconut more is one great step.

this post is full of :( and nothing else. i hope you understand my sadness ):

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Saturday, April 10, 2010

my hp's somewhere in the hse. i think there's some sms but i lazy go check :x. hehehe.

i bought the same smiley watch as wanyee and elysia!! elysia's one is in yellow, wanyee's in red and they asked me to get green. but this girl from another class got green, so i wn't get green. eeeeew. wanted to get purple, but it turned out that the purple is LIGHT purple. not nice. so i got PINK instead. everytime i say i wanna get a pink watch, i won't get. now i finally got 1. hehe. super nice kay, the shade of pink. love my smiley watch! :D

went to dental today but dentist wasn't there. so made appointment and have to go tmr evening. ): sigh.

rented 3 movies just now! all labelled M18. i pro not :D kay, i didn't knew that all was M18 until i got home. but who cares. as long as the movies are nice. and i have lots and lots of food! i have...
-burger king double mushroom swiss meal!!!!
-cheese cocktail
-mango cake!!!!!
-kueh lapis (finish eating alr)
-smoked beef
-sushi (in my tummy alr)

maybe still got somemore, i dont rmb. but i'm going to eat to my fill today!!!!

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Friday, April 9, 2010

i did something so stupid that made everyone LOL today. i was refilling 4 water bottles and i didn't had hands so i placed the bottles on the water cooler. the cat then came walking in my direction. one of the bottles fell and made a "piang" sound. cat kena shocked and stared at me. so i got scared lah. (obviously). was afraid that it'll bite me or smth. so i said sorry to the cat. just nice cheryl walk out of the toilet. nice scene -.-

had so much fun with janette they all today. seriously, make me laugh like mad!!!

i failed my econs test. but expected. cause i only studied when i was on the way to school in the cab. but not bad kay! it's a boderline fail. 10/25. qn (a) got 5/10 (A PASS!!! and i expected it -.-) and (b) got 5/15 (A FAIL!! and i expected it too -.-). eh shit. i just realised (b) is 5/15. WTF. i always thought (b) is upon 12!!!!! f ttm -.- nvm lah. 40% is a S. better than U. muahahaa. so far the highest score i know of is 15/25. and most people failed! so i don't care, my score's good enough.

janette's got a scheduler. should learn from her and get 1 too and organise my time. she's got so many to do, but so little time. so i asked her hw she did it. and she told me she plan her schedule. so i must learn from her :D

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Thursday, April 8, 2010

i couldn't find the ham in my fridge. so the first thing i did was i went to my mum's room and asked my bro "oi, why you finish all the ham". first thing to do. REALLY LOR. eveytime when food gone = confirm he finished everything. but this time no, my bad. it was my mum. hehehe :x okay i feel guilty now.

my mum is acting different recently... 2 days ago after she gave me my super a alot allowance, i told her "ma, sponsor me this dress (points to a $19.95 dress)". she readily gave me $20. without saying anything like "i just gave you your pocket money only". so spontaneous uh. then i asked her today if she wanted me to subscribe to times magazine which would cost around $180. again, within minutes she took out $180 from her wallet and "nah, there you go"!!!!!! she's acting so differently now!!! which kinds of creeps me out and make me feel guilty. cause my allowance is really a alot (like almost $100 a week!!!) and i'm still asking for more money.

nvm. main focus now : i've got a FEW chinese ws to complete. shit lah. how to do. must sleep and wake up early tmr -.-

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Wednesday, April 7, 2010

i never tend to post upsetting stuffs on my blog. but idk why i just unknowingly did it. shall remind myself to stop doing it and post more happy happenings! :D

this morning i received a text from amanda from livewire. she's so nice to invite me to livewire's church event this saturday! cause i went last sat. joy invited zt, i and some other SACians as well. had so much fun, even though i were there for only 2 hours (: the peeps were sososo friendly! we had to make a disgusting sandwich out of sardine, cai xin, shaker from mcd, chilli sauce, etc. we even had to eat it. omg, thank goodness i only tasted the sardine! our sandwich was 5 layers thick. hehehe. & when i left, those peeps waved goodbye to me, even when some of them don't rmb my name or vice versa! haha. friendly enough.

felt nausea for the whole of ytd. at first i thought would only last for 2 hours or so, but it worsened. i felt so weak that i can't even speak loudly and could only walk slowly. but i had maths retest so i couldn't go home ):the school was nice enough to let me snooze in the GO for an hour. had fever when i got home. oh maaaaaaan. so i skipped school today. doctor says i got gastric flu. ):

okay i shall go vote for the SL elects now. bye!! :D

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Tuesday, April 6, 2010

life hasn't been good for me. i still haven't got over some things... but i've gotten over coconut alr. good thing i suppose. cause i can concentrate in class. but the down side is, no more motivation for me to go to school. but i've became more sensible now and have been attending school everyday. (: a pat on the shoulder for myself!

i don't feel like going to school anymore. it's so stressful. i don't think i can take it any longer. ): i've never failed my maths so badly before, but this time, i really cmi. screwed the retest today again. what should i do. i don't wanna retain. i wanna cry. ):

another bad thing is i've fallen sick. felt like vomiting for the entire day and now i'm down with fever. wtf ttm. why life sucks so much.

people say "when life gives you lemon, make lemonade". i don't think i can make lemonade ):

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Saturday, April 3, 2010

i finally met up with natalie, sharmaine & rachel today!!! the last time i saw the 3 of them was when we collected our Os results. omggggg. so we went vivo, bought ljs and ate it outdoor. damn ncie lah the scenary :D after eating we played truth or dare and i showed them coconut!! wooohoooo.

i bought a top from cotton on (LIKE FINALLY, SHOPPING AFTER DECADES) and rachel bought bracelet from some "six" shop. we went diva and there was a tranny serving us!! omg. she cashed pet out of the shop though. hahaha. and of course, me too! cause i was eating ben and jerry's. hehehe. yummmmmmy. i cant rmb when was the last time i ate that. okay, fatty dinner tonight.

wanted to catch "clash of the titans" with joy, since she'sthe only one that can go home late. but by the time we finish watching would be 12am alr. no train! so we decided to watch it another time. damn ): can;t wait to go out with her again!

missing coconut!

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Thursday, April 1, 2010

i don't get why some christians love to pester people to join their church. maybe the word "pester" sounds harsh. but really, repect other's religion please (even if shes/hes free thinker)! i dont fancy going to church so don't ever ask me -.- i'll just reject.

so many peeps got shocked by my lizards and snake today! so funn!!! and i like coconut (:

but coconut's going out with grass tmr. i feel sad.... but the happiness is > sadness :D i still like coconut lah!!!!!

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