Monday, June 28, 2010

i'm totallyyyyyy worn out :( because i didn't sleep a wink last night. it was so torturous for me today when i did my chinese paper. all that was in my head was "quickly do finish the paper and sleep!". so i chionged like mad. i actually manage to squeeze out like 800-1000 words for my compo -.- kudos to me. my head was almost bursting like madddddddd. and i was pretty occupied with figuring how to not get out of topic. hallulujah if i did, fail man.

ok, chinese was in the noon, and i had gp in the morning. i have a feeling i'll pass. but i doubt so. :( if i pass, i'll make sure my mum treat me to something good. HAHA.

the dates for As MT oral are coming out this friday. hmmmmmm. OMG HOW? can get distinction not :( i've got phobia ever since i got my merit for Os. pray hard this time it's something i can talk about. haha!

what you'd call a friend that you dk his name? it's not even considered as a friend right. i mean, it feels as if hes just a mere stranger. who wouldn't know their friend's name? kay, this pisses me off. HAHA. kay la but the stupid bakuteh part from big bag - my heaven cannot stop playing in my head. as well as audition-ur ma angel. tsk, audition kills. (oh and when i stayed up last night, i played audition throughout. haha!)

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Friday, June 25, 2010

i have metals on my teeth! hehe. like finally. it doesnt feel painful, but just a tiny bit uncomfortable. BUT I REALISE UNCOMFORTABLE IS AN UNDERSTATEMENT WHEN I EAT T_______T. because i cant close my mouth properly yet, which means cnt bite properly >_> so will have to eat slowly. sigh :(

but i love this holiday! it's a fruitful one though i didnt study at all. if i studied, it would be the best holiday ever (: HAHA. because i actually made a few new friends and did my braces!! there's some other factors that made it fruitful too but i cnt rmb what >_> HAHA BYE.






omg i was browsing through fb and i saw recalled this particular girl from my sec2 class. i suddenly rmb an incident whr she made me so unhappy ( a bitch btw ). there was this maths peer tutoring programme. so i was chosen to be one of the tutors la, based on sec1 results. so i tutored this bitch. then she said right in my face "huh, steffi ah? can or not one?" ccb, dont play play ah. then she went to my friend for help instead. so i'm like tutoring myself -.- eh jidan, your O levels get what grade huh!!!!! OK SHIT. idk why so random. but whr got people so bitch one?!

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AWESOME SHIT. I'M HIGH NOW :D AS IF I'M ON DRUGS EVERYNIGHT, HIGH WITHOUT FAIL! HAWHAWHAW.

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Thursday, June 24, 2010

The weather's cold like fuck, or is it just me?

GP + MT next monday. COOL OR WHAT? first time ever i feel that i wont ace MT and i'll fail badly for GP -.- whaaaaaaat, each paper is 3 hours long. so i wont get to go to the toilet hur :( i'd better score well for MT, other wise i dont see any point in taking As this year, will only fail.

KAY ITS SUPER COLD.

anyway why so many people bhb!! i mean, i'm bhb anough alr, and they're even more bhber than me. LOL. where got people ask others "you miss me right, dont deny". WTFFFFFF. kay la, i admit i do that sometimes. but, wth, as the victim, i cannot tahhan the bhbness! LOL.

and i came acroos this person in audi. he's super joker. i was using my bro's ac and the story went like this.
me: *clicks rdy*
him: how are you?
me: ? lol (because idk him)
him: its me la
me: who?
him: *silence*
me: whowhowho? (curious to know who. LOL)
him: idk you lah
me: WTH THEN YOU SAY UNTIL LIKE YOU KNOW ME
him: *click exit*

wtf. lame shit joker person.

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Wednesday, June 23, 2010

BITCH.

Simply feel like yelling this word now! OKAY, NOT ONLY NOW, BUT FOR THE PAST FEW DAYS AS WELL. Referring to... others and myself :( YA LAH, I BITCH, CANNOT AH. I even fought with my good friend this morning! And i used "KNN" IN CAPS. :( FIRST TIME I EVER USED THIS ON SOMEONE :( can see how angry i really were this morning! & i'm super guailan. fuckkkkkkkkkkkk.

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very into casual dresses recently. omg, and previously i were into dressy ones, like cocktail dresses. you can count how many of it i ahve lah. (okay, still into it now!). just that i feel that i should have some casual ones if not, buy alr put there bai sui also no point right?! haha! so obviously i'm gonna spend more now, since i'm getting both dressy and casual.

EH AND GOOD NEWS IS I STUDY MATHS LIAO. SIAODINGDONG (eh got influenced cause i read shumin's blog). starting on econs ltr. reading up on the tb to strengthen my foundation. stupid LHF started studying without me. good! >:(

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Tuesday, June 22, 2010

i realised something. we always know what we want to achieve, but we're just too lazy/ not focused to work hard for it. so many people are now having their Os but they're not studying. why? BECAUSE THEYRE LIKE ME. LOL. shit. but seriously, what made me procrastinate was friends. i wanted to chat and play with them so i didnt want to study. LOL. i knew i'd cry the end of the day, but i still procrastinated. but i'm just paying the price for not studying. fair enough? not like i can blame anyone else, esp not the teachers. the teachers are there to guide you. by the end of the day, you still have to help yourself. thats all i have to say. it's not like the teachers are around 24/7 to practice with you, am i right? hmmm. i cried when i receive my results, so i pasted it on my wall and remind myself NEVER PROCRATINATE AGAIN. but i'm still doing it now. human's nature isn't it?

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Saturday, June 19, 2010

I'm a super happy girl! hehehe! and only AYM knows why! I'm super scared that i misinterpreted the message or smth. LOL. but whatever, i choose to live in my dream for once! usually i won't. hmm. at least in the past, i didn't.

anyway i love myself now. LOL. stupid narcism. Kay, bye. enough crap.

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Friday, June 18, 2010

i'm having my lunch now! omg, look at the time. hahaha. it's because i just woke up okay. my stupid braces are poking my mouth every now and then. LOL. but thank god i can still munch munch munch! :D

sindy tan tagged alot of us in facebook. omg, she reminds me of sec2 days ): though she really ......., i've gotta say, i really miss her. LOL. we really had alot of fun tgt, till she changed. ): i miss the day when they actually threw banana cakes on me around the park instead of a birthday cake on my birthday. LOL.

i was damn fucked up ytd. ): LOL. and i think i'm crazy! but cannot help it. but i'm a happy girl now. :D idk if i'll be angry again later. LOL.

shit i'm talking no sense. BYE.

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Wednesday, June 16, 2010

i'm having super bad mood now. as if someone irritated me like hell. :(
and i don't want to be. cause i'm showing attitude to my friend and it seems like he hate me now :(
shit life sucks.

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Monday, June 14, 2010

i'm so lifeless now with nothing to do (i dont wanna study! ): ). even my only pass-time is down! audition! :( nehnehpok. and i'm super hungry now but i dont want to get out of my chair and look for food. LOL. i think i'll die one day due to being too lazy to search for food and starve to death.

anyway i'm unhapy with this bastard that's forever making me annoyed by insulting himself and say i look down on him! for god's sake, since when i ever insult him?! he say everything himself then assume. -.- and he's my good friend. what can i do!!!!! tsk, nvm. since i'm so annoyed, i shall not talk to him again >:( REALLY VERY IRRITATED!

okay CHILL STEFFI! eh, i like my name. LOL. kay, random. goodbye. I GOTTA RETURN JOY HER MONEY THAT SHE LENT ME. LOL

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Saturday, June 12, 2010

i went for dinner with joy and rachel today! :D haven't seen rachel for 3848746594759 days. while for joy, seen her last week -.- AHAH. but still happy to see her.

i didn't even had dinner. all i had was a large mcd fries. wasn't feeling hungry ):

ok idk what else i'd wanna write. lame shiiiiit. got to rush my SIC report now! supposed to be emailed to miss lim in the evening, but i wasn't at home -.- sucks.

GOODBYE!

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Thursday, June 10, 2010

Maths was cancelled today. So school was from 1210pm to 240pm. PURE econs. omg much. i mean, econs isn't that bad... but 2.5 hours straight of listening to econs? no way ): (but this doesnt imply that i cnt study for few hours straight. i've done it 24/7 before without sleep, for real.).

No lesson's cancelled tmr... so there's school from 1040am to 310pm. but there's art club at 9am, so i'll have to wake up at 630am! look at the time now, i'm not even preparing to sleep yet! ): still thinking if i should pon chinese tmr. but the cher's returning our compo. my 2nd compo of the year!!!!! i really wanna get it back. LOL. okay... if i get >45marks upon 60, i'll treat myself bubbletea. LOL. the last time i got 46/60 for some stupid cockroach compo. LOL. stupid, but meaningful hur. The cher also havent make me retake my oral. if that's the case i think she'll use my previous oral mark for block test, which is 25/30 >:D happy me. kay, all left now for block test is to do my compo, compre and summary writing well. suckkkkkyyyyyyy. so sick of these alr. but look at the bright side! after this year, NO MORE MT EXAMS FOR MEEEEEE! :D aim A for MT As!

suddenly remind me of this conver with Mr Tan when i received my first O level MT results last year:
Mr Tan: look, here's your results (A2, oral Merit)
Me: walao, i want A1, my PSLE got A leh. How come i get merit sia.
Mr Tan: A2 also A mah.
Me: But i want A1 >:( should i retake?
Mr Tan: I think you should not retake

Then Miss Martens (principle) came over to me
Her: Steffi, you've done well
Me: No, i wanted A1 (then i started to cry)
Her: No, A2 is good enough (i don't like her to insist A2 is good)

Rachel they all actually thought i cried because i was too happy. LOL. but i was super sad.

Ok, not only Mr Tan, but also Mdm Chua(HOD chi), Mdm Pey(previous chi cher) and jeanette + some miscellaneous people told me not to retake. because i only got merit, which means the chances of getting A1 is slim. but i was so pissed with the fact that they discourage me. but i understand why they say that though. i'm extremely stubborn. when i want to do something, i WILL do it. i told myself not to retake (OF COURSE LAH) but until the very last min (really last min!) then i went up to Mdm Pey and told her i'll retake. before that i was crying like mad, cause of the results. and since i cried so much, of course it'll justify myself if i retake lah.

Then when i retook my Chinese paper 1 and 2, omg, i thought i'll get like B4 for that paper. because
1, i thought my compo was out of point
2, the compre was the hardest one i ever done in my life (serious, no kid)

so obviously say byebye to my A1 lah. but when i received my O level cert in Jan, OMG, I GOT AN A1 for MT! so i haolianed to Mr Tan "see i got A1". HAHA. actually what i wanted to do is to let him know, cannot discourage students! cause teachers are there to help & motivate us what (:

on a side note, some stupid people say the MT retest compre was easy but still scored like shit. please lah, mai haolian. end up still score below ave score. can fill in the blanks /= correct ans /= easy.

OKOK ENOUGH. sorry for my grandmother story!!!
but this experience of mine tells me you must persist to achieve what you want, so you must too!

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Tuesday, June 8, 2010

i'm sucha good girl again, today :D:D
i actually went to school punctually. okay, i was there 20 min before time. HAHA
the next thing is i handed in my phys tys chapt 2 and 4. yay! :D but the last few qns are chapalang, couldn't be bothered so anyhow complete.
maths was... 75% done? heh (:

KAY I'M SO GONNA NAP NOW. i only slept for 4 hours last night from 4+am till 8+am

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Monday, June 7, 2010

omg, i havent done my physics tys! shall spend the rest of the night, and probably tmr morning too, if i can't finish it in time to complete. 2 chapters to be done ): but i like phys. AND MATHS EVEN MORE :D. i'm sucha maths freak.

oh and i actually tutored pearlyn emaths a couple of days ago. i feel so happy when she understands how to do properties of circle. she basically didn't knew how to do at all at first until she could easily see whr's all the answers. feeling a sense of accomplishment (:

and i just had a deal with my mum! for every A i score for promos, i'll get a hundred bucks. good deal right! :D but getting an A is... tough. because YJ's standard is super high, and idk why. i like high standards, but i dont like it when idk how to do.

omg and the timetable's out. my first lesson's at 10.40am tmr!! woohoooo. but then there's 2 of 1hour break. waste time. only get to go home at 4.10 ): no pe, no pcct, no nonsensical lessons! :D but there's a period of chinese on thurs. i don't feel like going eh ): and i just recall, there's a compo to complete for the chinese compo competition!!! shit man! ): so sick of writing compos. but i only wrote 2 compos out of ~10 for the year. LOL. slack like shit. better score A for MT As this year man.

i want to buy a maxi dress! it's so pretty! :D:D:D

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Sunday, June 6, 2010

i didnt manage to get my shampoo today. boohoohoo ): all was left were conditioners. i bought another shorts from cotton on again. just bought a pink one several days ago and now... ): bought a skirt few days ago too. sigh ttm. so now i have like... 10 shorts? and quite a number of skirts. not forgetting, 30 over dresses. i must be mad.

then i bought this pair of pumps from mondo. it's super comfy. it's totally made of suede, even the insoles. say bye to blisters :D weiting couldnt buy with me cause there were only plus size for the pumps. okay, my foot's big. so what? my mum commented that it looks auntish. ohman, make me regret ):

no dimsum tmr.

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Saturday, June 5, 2010

i'm eating an apple when i'm not supposed to (i think), and i'm using my front tooth to bite. ): when will i then finish eating it!!

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i've got 8 blue cute little rounded things stucked in between my teeth! shall not reveal why till the time has riped. LOL. but anyway it makes me feel like my teeth's gonna drop -.- or probably it'll drop off and i'll swallow it.

no school next monday!! makes me excited. only 4 days of school instead of 5. not bad huhhhhh. aiming to finish my phy chapt 3 & 4 (?) tonight. done with maths complex number 1.1 and 1.2 last night and whole vectors chapter long time ago. so much of being a good girl. the "i love maths" feeling is coming back. hohoh. but there's so many things i've gotta catch up. must learn differentation and exponential. i'm at great disadvantage. others had 2 years to learn while for me, adding all the time have tgt would be half a year i say? how to chiong man. but i'm still procrastinating. whatever. gotta buy new batts for my sharp calculator! the graphic calculator sucks at times.

eating dim sum (?) next monday with janette and peeps! + watching idk-what-movie. still undecided. but not very enthu for the dim sum part. LOL. idk what i wld eat man. char siew bao? mantou? he ye fan? tsk, neutral with those dishes

and my bro's birthday's coming up! in less than 1o days. and he wants dim sum. dbt (da bulek tahhan! learnt from ch8 :D). dimsum next week, dimsum the week after. argh ): i prefer sakae sushi, even when i dont really like sushi. the bento's nice!! ^^b

weird but i have so much to share today. when i was on the bus today, this uncles sat beside me. he smelt so dusty!!! i felt nausea smelling. really. i could feel that my dinner last night was spilling out, not just "imagining" tat i'm gonna puke -.- thank god i alighted soon. i wonder why can some people smell to such extent!

i have 3 activities to do tmr! maths tuition (:D, dk why), buy essential shampoo at tm with weiting using bc's coupon! LOL. cheapos man. but i love essential. their hair mask rocks. and lastly, to go gym with joy. my ankle hvnt recover. but i miss running. shall do weightlifting if i cnt run ):

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Friday, June 4, 2010

first thing first. i have a strong hunch that i'll fail my block tests badly. i'm sure everyone else thinks so too. gotta pay the price for being a lazy ass. and of course a even greater price by the end of the year, which is to retain. tsk, i dont wanna attend orientation again and make new friends ):

i discover new things about myself everyday. once i had a very close friend then we fought and became enemies. but now i feel nothing towards that person. it felt as if i didn't knew that person before. good or bad?

missed econs today. ernest is sick, i don't feel like going, same for francine too. so there's only wai choong that went and probably py and noel if they attended. dont like noel and py anyway. joke.

k, i'm (quite) unhappy at someone. i'm trying my very best to help _ to accomplish what _ wants. but _ kept taking things for granted. i'm NOT obliged to help you. i hope that you _ man.

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i'm having hiccups at night and idk why ):

some things i have to get it done by this holiday:

1. revise for every subj thoroughly, obviously. and i'll give myself a grace of a week to slack before starting, which is this week.
2. make sure my sprained ankle recover. it's sprained for 3 months alr, cannot go on like this.
3. train my stamina
4. treat my runny nose, sore throat and cough. it's been with me for 2 weeks.

feel like a loser man. there's something wrong with me at every part of my body.

and my O level results makes me feel so inferior. what should i do.

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Tuesday, June 1, 2010

officialy declare i'm broke -.- idk how to manage my money, all i know is to buy buy buy. ): but whatever, i won't stop buying. have a long list of items on my waiting list! :D

caught shrek today. omgggg, i love shrek! it's so cute and nice. and this is really touching ): i almost cried when shrek "died". and one thing you can learn from this movie is to cherish whatever you have, do not regret only when you've lost it. (:

and obviously i have not started on revision yet. as expected. crosses fingers for block tests. i'm alr preparing to retain. tsk, hopeless me.

shall try doing some maths on complex numbers later.

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