Thursday, October 28, 2010

tsk. im still moody today. thanks to some bastard. someone tell me whats the point of saying sorry when you dont change? seriously. and i keep thinking. if i were to somehow lose coconut as a friend, would i cry? probably. but it wouldn't be of much impact to me. but if i were to lose that bastard, how would i feel? i'd cry and idk what'll happen to me. fuck.

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Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Fucking hate my mother. only know how to accuse me. ccb knn.

cb bad day. i wanted to take mc today so i slept slept slept. until 8.50am ep called me and told me to bring the cover page for wr to school. wtf. 5 person in a grp and only 2 of us has got the cover page? (btw can only use the original one, cannot photocopy). so i had to fucking rush and cab down to school. because they want me to reach by 10am. ccb. i stay in pasir ris and my sch's in yishun leh.

nehmind. then i went home at 12.30pm, after pw, pon chinese. when i'm gonna nap at 2.30pm, kns cp called me to go back to school for chinese. stupid cher force me to go back and say gimme 30min to get back only. ccbbbbbbbbbbb. so again, i had to rush back to school.

nehmind. then on the way home some ccb china woman went to hug the grab pole i was holding on to and i cant balance myself. the lousy bus driver also cant drive and keep braking. fuck up. plus also so many pple stinks. first i smell ppl's smelly foot then i smell ahneh's BO. fuckkkkkk. damn pissed.

and when i come home my cb mother accuse and scold me. she answered my call ytd like she wanna scold me so i was rude. she still can shout at me : WHY YOU NO MANNERS DK HOW TO SAY HELLO AH. ccb. she was the rude one first ok. cant she fucking say hello. ccb. i no manners also you teach one.

idk whats wrong with me but i very guailan recently. fuck up. and some bastard betrayed me. and there's fucking stress pw. and there's urgent chinese A level next mon. cbcbcbcbcb. im so pissed.

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Tuesday, October 26, 2010

how would you feel if someone impt to you tells you they betrayed you at the time where you're committed to doing your work? telling that they betrayed you is bad enough.... but with all the stress building up from pw, omg. kill me :( this idiot told me he did something behind my back last night but i havent felt anything. all was on my was pw pw pw. i was so stressed over my speech last night cause nothing could come out :( but on my way to school this morning i wanted to cry cause i came to a sudden realization "hey, he betrayed me". fuck. and everyone were asking me why i'm sad. i should just stop laughing 24/7 in school.

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Thursday, October 21, 2010

there's OP preperation everyday from tmr onwards. :( I DONT WANNA DO OP. so paiseh x99 + i cant speak properly for nuts. :( i'll embarass myself only. OP be over quick please. and school is fucking ending at 440 tmr and 410 next mon to fri. with 2 one hour break in between everyday somemore!! MY SCHOOL SERIOUSLY GOT SOME PROB WITH LONG BREAKSSSS. imagine no 2 one hour break, i can go home at 210. damnnnn. i hate pw. i don't want to see mdm liao everyday for 4 hours!! 2 hours of PW + 2 hours of OP preperation. wtf. can't they put OP prep under PW. isnt it part of pw?! :( nehmind, it's gonna end soon. SOOOOON. OP would be early nov anyway i guess.

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Monday, October 18, 2010

i'm dumb. i am. :(

idk why everyone's panicking for promos and i'm not. it's not like there's still some time till promos... but promos are alr ending soon. and i can actually sit for a paper without studying at all. so i'm really gonna retain huh. that's not really a problem if i know my stuffs... but the thing is i havent been attending school for superrrrr long and i have i'm clueless about my work. idk since when i became so hecked. i don't like myself.

the worse thing is i went out today, i'm thinking of whether to join my aunt in their turkey trip and how to have fun during mnet concert. like fuck. thinking of anything, everything, except for promos. god save me please. this mindset of mine will kill me someday.

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Thursday, October 14, 2010

tsk. dont understand how sometimes some girls can be so bhb and post about how guys are trying "chase" them and "obsessed with" them. why i put those words in inverted commas cause it's what the girl thinks and assume. no one's even chasing them. o.m.g. ok lah, even if got guys chase you so what. so haolian tell ppl for what. (but the fact is still no one's chasing you!!). buay tahan. somemore you so fugly. zzz. makes me wanna puke.

ok digress abit. suppose to be studying phy now. but i cannot focus. tsk. paper's at 8am. how to fucking finish 8 chapts from now? and out of which, 3 of them i didn't attend lecture at all. pon too much school. LOL. so to study or not to study? ans: DONT STUDY. HAHA. anyway i predict that i'm gonna score shit for econs. so what for study? retain anyway. tsk. be like joshua. HAHA. he even went out today man. anyone wanna be my OGL next year? :D

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Tuesday, October 5, 2010

i'm kinda touched that my friends from other JCs(karen, megan, michelle, etc) are willing to help me with passing my promos (: i have a really good feeling about it. who says i can't pass phy and econs huh. i'll show u can i can bitches!! ok, but why they say i can't is because i've been missing half the lectures. so it's only natural for someone to think you can't make it. but it's so so so discouraging.

i'm gonna start revising kinematics in 15min. yay :D

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Friday, October 1, 2010

fuck, my first setback in life. i thought i'd retain when i was in sec three but amazingly i promoted. now (although i'm lazy & last min) i'm struggling to promote but it's like 80% confirm i'll retain. fuck much. tsk. and what made me most disappointed isn't me retaining. but my mum is really disappointed with me. idk why, but i just cannot bare to see her upset. think i've been taking her for granted. she never ever pushed me to do work before. all she asks for is for me to pass. she don't even demand for As. damn, i'm unfilial. it's actually the very first time she literally forced me to study. she even told me "walao why score so lousy" when i told her i scored B for chinese promos. she have high expectations of me :( it's the first time she made this kind of comments!! tsk, i really dk what i can do. idw to make all those that wish for me to pass to disappoint. and there's no one i can blame. from the very first day, everyone has alr told me jc isn't an easy route. but fuck, i was so complacent i didn't wanna heed their advice. and Mr Ng has been trying very hard to knock senses into my head but i was simply too stubborn. he always told me "steffi you're not stupid you know. you're actually smart. it's your actions that's stupid." yeah, very true. i know it very well too. then he said "i really dk how to help you alr". and i replied him "it's okay. nevermind one". and he gave a me sigh. why i gave that reply was because how can he help me when even i cannot and don't want to help myself. okay enough. i just don't want to disappoint anyone!!!!! i know by the end of the day i'll definitely cry and regret.

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