Thursday, November 25, 2010

3 more min before i go to bathe. i studied for about 5.5hr to 6hrs! so proud of myself. -.- somehow completed market structure and done with qn1 from promos paper2. since the cher says that qn1 and 4 will be VERY similar in sup papers. hehe. so i assume the topic+skills required is the same lah.

freaking sleepy :( i didn't sleep the entire night. shall see when results come out on the 10th dec! i wanna pass econs. will be good, too, if i can pass phy :D but die die must get at least an S for phy. they won't be announcing out grades though. they'll only be saying if we promoted or retained. and our results slips will be issued next year. sigh. mr ng is gonna drill me on maths from the 11 dec onwards. :( hopefully he changes his mind and rather not drill me!

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Wednesday, November 24, 2010

i'm in reallyyyy good mood. and i think there's 4 reasons to it.

1. i'm chatting with somebody like how we used to! haha. ok, not really. only that last night we sms-ed. lame.

2. i had enough sleep. 14 hours of sleep from 10pm till 12pm. :D :D

3. listening to the song Beast-Beautiful. idk why, but the tune is so cheery and lightens up my mood (:

4.i think my happy mood is mostly credited from this. eindra just called me to tell me what coconut and other guys were talking about during econs today. (cause i wasn't in school so i had no idea). hehe. made me really happy (:

but i should be in a panic mode instead. phy and econs sup papers tmr!!! and i havent studied ytd and today. what i have to complete by tonight : supply&demand + PED PES OR market failure + externalities AND market structure. seeeeeee. how can i not panic?! cb much. HAHA. but i'm prepared to burn midnight oil le. it's always like that. i don't remember when i was able to sleep before a paper. hahahah. it's my style!!

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Monday, November 15, 2010

many little bad things make up one extremely bad day

ONE

i got back my results today.

Maths- S(known alr)

Phy- U

Econs- S

GP- S

Geog- E

idk why, but i somehow managed to pass geog. all i studied was hydrology graph and rain cycle. i can rmb how i asked wanyee "what is cockpit cast" in the morning before the paper. and i realised, if i didnt try to attempt every single qn, i would have lost 10m and failed. because i tried to fill in every blanks, i tyco-ly scored 10m more. and i left out a 16m essay. thanks god (: but i shouldn't be happy, should i? although i scored so much better for econs, gp and geog, i still failed and definitely cant promote with my current grades. i need to get EES, but i'm getting SSU. fuck much. my econs case studies i got 21/30. but i still shouldn't be happy, right? yes. cause i got 12/50 for essay :( idk to be glad or upset cause i've improved so much, yet insufficient. i even lost count of the number of CCBs i said today. subpapers this week and next week. tell me where's the time to study? :( so stressed i wanna cry.

TWO

a fucking bitch stared at me the entire day (someone whom i dislike from my class). her eyes were practically popping out! like this>> O_O. i felt so much like gorging her eyes out. fuckfuckfuck. and it's not annying me only. she's making others irritated by asking them to stare at me too!! who in the right mind would stare at ppl! maybe only her. cause we happen to be love rivals hur? i wanted to go up to her and say "chaocheebai, stop looking can." but i just can't. sigh.

THREE

i have a friend, let's call him W. whenever he's upset i would always comfort him and try to cheer him up. but whenever I'M SAD, he would LEAVE ME ALONE. fuck. this is damn one sided. all he replied me when i told him i failed badly was "=x". and it's not as if we're only acquaintance! we're fucking close! this makes my blood boil. not once, twice or thrice. BUT COUNTLESS TIMES. i don't wanna tolerate it anymore. a friend like this ain't worth keeping. i'm grateful for friends like janette, cheryl, wanyee, weixin, eindra and clarissa though. cause they are forever there to listen to my complaints! & most imptly, they are supportive and encourages me. i cannot thank more for having these friends.

FOUR

probably it's because i only had 3.5hours of sleep. so i'm fucking pissed off right now. i'm angry everytime i dont get enough sleep. sigh. but i've been so gl and fucked up for the past few days. i wanna stop attitude-ing people alr :(

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Sunday, November 7, 2010

i'm having sore throat and overdosing on strepsils thanks to OP! zz, i'm rehearsing like at least 4 hours everyday! ZZZZ. will rehearse for the rest of tonight till tmr evening cause the actual thing is on tues :( FUCKKKKK.

i'm really fortunate to have classmates like coconut(ahem). he would sit down 1-to-1 with me and listen to my speech. and correct me sentence by sentence. i'm so touched that he's so willing and trying so hard to help me!! but it's probably because he doesn't want me to pull the group's grades down :( but he was so kind and nice! HAHA. and i got so motivated when he said "let's score our As tgt!". but i felt so stressed and i wanted to cry :( while rehearsing halfway, i told him "give me a minute" and i walked away, cause tears were flowing out alr. sigh.

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