i got back my results today.

Maths- S(known alr)

Phy- U

Econs- S

GP- S

Geog- E

idk why, but i somehow managed to pass geog. all i studied was hydrology graph and rain cycle. i can rmb how i asked wanyee "what is cockpit cast" in the morning before the paper. and i realised, if i didnt try to attempt every single qn, i would have lost 10m and failed. because i tried to fill in every blanks, i tyco-ly scored 10m more. and i left out a 16m essay. thanks god (: but i shouldn't be happy, should i? although i scored so much better for econs, gp and geog, i still failed and definitely cant promote with my current grades. i need to get EES, but i'm getting SSU. fuck much. my econs case studies i got 21/30. but i still shouldn't be happy, right? yes. cause i got 12/50 for essay :( idk to be glad or upset cause i've improved so much, yet insufficient. i even lost count of the number of CCBs i said today. subpapers this week and next week. tell me where's the time to study? :( so stressed i wanna cry.

TWO

a fucking bitch stared at me the entire day (someone whom i dislike from my class). her eyes were practically popping out! like this>> O_O. i felt so much like gorging her eyes out. fuckfuckfuck. and it's not annying me only. she's making others irritated by asking them to stare at me too!! who in the right mind would stare at ppl! maybe only her. cause we happen to be love rivals hur? i wanted to go up to her and say "chaocheebai, stop looking can." but i just can't. sigh.

THREE

i have a friend, let's call him W. whenever he's upset i would always comfort him and try to cheer him up. but whenever I'M SAD, he would LEAVE ME ALONE. fuck. this is damn one sided. all he replied me when i told him i failed badly was "=x". and it's not as if we're only acquaintance! we're fucking close! this makes my blood boil. not once, twice or thrice. BUT COUNTLESS TIMES. i don't wanna tolerate it anymore. a friend like this ain't worth keeping. i'm grateful for friends like janette, cheryl, wanyee, weixin, eindra and clarissa though. cause they are forever there to listen to my complaints! & most imptly, they are supportive and encourages me. i cannot thank more for having these friends.

FOUR

probably it's because i only had 3.5hours of sleep. so i'm fucking pissed off right now. i'm angry everytime i dont get enough sleep. sigh. but i've been so gl and fucked up for the past few days. i wanna stop attitude-ing people alr :(

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