Tuesday, August 31, 2010

sometimes i really regret wearing braces. it's so omfg pain when the dentist tightens it!! for the first time i've worn it, my teeth felt so "itchy", then followed by so painful that i can't even close my mouth!! then when i went back for my app the 2nd time, not so bad, wasn't painful at all. guess it was because the dentist didn't do anything to my teeth la. i was thinking to myself "WALAO. why everybody say will be very pain but not pain one!!". but today when i went back for my third app, OH EM EFF GEEEEEEEEEEE. it's so fucking painful. the dentist took out the entire wire and replaced it with a new one. = he's gonna make it AS TIGHT AS POSSIBLE. + he added some rubbery thing to tie all the metal pieces tgt. wtf max. i really feel like pulling all the metals on my teeth out la. but for the sake of my $$$$$$ ( those that i paid ) and i dont wanna be boh geh, i'll suffer with painful teeth for the next few days -.-

asshole dropped the daffadil at 11:03 PM [comment]

***

i always tell myself tmr would be a brand new day after i wake up. i'll just make my troubles *poof* (pretend they are not there and not think about them). but i was waken up by my trouble! some idiot sms me about his ex-> my phone rang very loudly -> awaken the sleeping peacefully me. wtfzxzxzx. but anyway it's good i suppose? cause i have to do my EOM. if he didn't sms me i'll sleep all the way till tmr -.-

asshole dropped the daffadil at 4:39 AM [comment]

***

Monday, August 30, 2010

bonitochico has got their new web now, but i think there's something wrong with it. i cannot seem to add everything i want to my cart. if i were to add (A), (B) would be gone. and if i add (B) again, (C) is gone! i can have only one item in my cart at any point of time. wtf. i wanna shop please!! and the dresses from this collection is beautiful, especially the lacey one. ok, i cant rmb the name of the dress. who cares!

i'm actually feeling agitated/upset now. 20% because of bonitochico's web but 80% because of __. i was happy last night because of some things __ said to me. maybe he don't mean it (since he probably don't mean it when he say it most of the time) but i chose to live in self-denial again. i really wished it were real though! but i kinda woke up from my self-denial this morning. cause i thought to myself "no way is this gonna be real". he was telling me that he's gonna have dinner on msn earlier on, but he kept on dragging and didn't had his dinner. he then told me he's actually quarreling with his ex. omg, i felt so sad that instant. (hopefully i'll "wake up" again tmr morning). although they're quarreling, but hey, that's his ex. this made me felt like avoiding him again. the other time when i avoided him he asked me why am i avoiding him. but i just pretended i wasn't. hah, joke!! it was because he'll always say some things unknowingly to make me sad, even when i tried avoiding that topic. obviously i wouldn't wanna be sad right, so i chose to avoid him instead. seriously, if you don't mean it, then don't even say it. i don't understand why is it so easy for you to say it out when it's so tough for me. stop making people have the wrong idea.






OK SKIP. enough. talk about the dream i had last night! i woke up this morning and i thought "eh i think i dreamt of jiahao". but i was unsure cause i rly couldnt rmb what i dreamt of. then when i went to school, wy told me it's jiahao's bday ytd. OMG I FORGOTTTTTT. HAHA. cause there's only 3 person's bday (inc. mine) in aug, so i rmbed all. then i rmbed my dream! i dreamt that i wish him happy birthday. but i couldnt recall it in reality at all. HAHA WHAT A JOKE!

asshole dropped the daffadil at 10:52 PM [comment]

***

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

as i expected, i cried upon receiving my maths paper. i somehow relate this to the weather. it's sunny now... but raining. i got 4/50. laugh all you want ( IF you want ). i'm traumatized enough alr. but if you come to my face and criticize me, you'd better watch out. true enough, i didn't study for it and i slacked until i couldn't even catch up with the pace and breach the gap. BUT i did put in effort to study for 2 nights. definitely i don't deserve 4/50, do i? i thought maybe it's because i didn't sleep enough so i couldn't focus. but no... if it were right, how come i could do so well during Os without sleep for 5 days? so on the way home i thought to myself. probably God wants me to experience this sadness (which is probably 1/10 of what i experenced when i got my Os results) again so i can work hard, since i'm so lazy now. be it whatever, i'll pass the retest. i thank the people who comforted me (: i know you all think i kinda deserve it, but still thanks a lot for not being mean and actually gave me moral support C:

asshole dropped the daffadil at 6:01 PM [comment]

***

Sunday, August 22, 2010

been having stomachache since tues :( but i refuse to eat medicine prescribed by the doctor cause... i just don't like to eat medicine, especially when it causes drowsiness. my nose became like a broken tap this morning and mucus just cannot stop flowing out + blocked nose. annoying man. so i stacked my pillow higher so i can sleep more easily cause my nose wont be so blocked. then who knows.... i "lao zhen". suay ttm. so i'm living with an irritated nose and painful neck now.

tried to get my tutor not come this morning since i was so unwell... but unlucky me, she didn't bring her phone out. so she didn't read my msg :( anyway i had panadol and am feeling much better now. though i think the panadol's too strong for me, i'm feeling weak. together with a salonpas on my neck C:

asshole dropped the daffadil at 2:53 PM [comment]

***

i was browsing through someone's blog and i unknowingly (maybe knowingly) read all his posts. and it made me felt so bad. why is it that people would feel that they are inferior to be with someone if theyre from NT/NA and the ppl they like are from from express or someone more superior than them...? human nature? hmmmmm....



ANYWAY AH BIRD CAME OVER TO MY HOUSE TO STUDY TODAY (: i feel bad cause i actually kinda wasted 4 hours of his time cause he didn't learn anything from me. but i felt happy cause i had fun with him!! C: he srsly can make me laugh, and so nonsensical too!! he's nothing like what i see in the past anymore. people do grow up C:

asshole dropped the daffadil at 12:12 AM [comment]

***

Monday, August 16, 2010

AQ test in the morning. screwed ttm. i totally have no idea how's a AQ's supposed to be like. wrote nonsense. oh man. didn't see coconut when i were doing the test so i thought he didn't come. but since there's SPA today, he'd definitely turn up. smiled like siao zar bor when i saw him!! :D but some bitch was flirting like she's never seen a guy before with him. like fuck, why everything also copy me. i like him you also like him. i buy china pig nose bag you also buy. fuckkkkkk up. maybe cheryl's right. "don't tell her who you like next time when you like someone else". she still can pretend as if she dk i know that she like him and come talk to me about him. the whole world knows alr for goodness sake. i liked him for the pass half a year and it wasn't obvious to anyone at all. but for you, 1 month and the whole class found out about it. nvm, talk about SPA. it's 90% like one of the PWS we did. so i'm quite confident of scoring. bad day. slept at 3am last night and woke up at 5.30am. gonna do the same again tonight ): mug for maths test. punishment to slack for the pass 2 weeks.

asshole dropped the daffadil at 7:34 PM [comment]

***

Friday, August 13, 2010

look at the time!! kay, i'm not staying up for fun.but i'm actually studying econs. omg, i just realise things are easy when you understand them (ok maybe not. but i'm always reluctant to learn new stuffs). i'm eating now... greedy me heat up the whole packet of siew mai and now i'm stuffeddddddd. my aunt walked out of the room and saw me using laptop and i bet she's thinking i'm playing instead of sleeping. tsk tsk. bad timing. oh and i don't study for no reason. there's econs test later. LOL. imagine if there's no test... i won't know when i'll start studying. PASS TMR STEFFI (:

asshole dropped the daffadil at 12:58 AM [comment]

***

Thursday, August 12, 2010

i just watched echoes of the rainbow on dvd! borrowed the dvd from mdm ang, hehe. damn sad. i still cried even when it's the 2nd time i watch it. family love's really great... touching ttm. ):

no sleeping tonight! mugging for econs test tmr. hehe (:

asshole dropped the daffadil at 9:40 PM [comment]

***

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

i've been feeling great the past few days!! ^^ little things can actually make me happy. i received a sms in the middle of last night and it made me smile, when i'm supposed to be sleeping. it's all the small things that comes from the heart that makes you cheery. idk what's wrong with me, but i think this can't go on.

printed econs reflection template for coconut. he's like me, missed school on fri!! haha, obviously i haven't done mine either. but even if i gotten zero for this reflection for late work, i still have to hand it in. sian ttm.

i . must . practice . differentiation. i hope the last art on integrals isn't tested. and mr ng isn't around to help me. :( he's gone back for reservice for 2 weeks!!!

I WANNA MEET BEAST.
YOSEOBIEEEEEE (Y)

asshole dropped the daffadil at 9:25 PM [comment]

***

Sunday, August 8, 2010

I WENT SHOPPING WITH WY TODAY :D damn fun, i swear! we actually bought 4 items from the same shop, out of which, 2 were the same things! haha! we bought exact same pair of shoes, but hers in grey, mine in black, and exact same blouse, but mine in black while hers in white. got similar tank tops too. and bought bags from the same shop but the bags are totally different. hehe. the bag was seriously cheap... $15 only!! i was so surprised. hehe. but i think it's because of the lousy quality...

in total, i bought 2 shorts, 2 tops, 1 jacket, 1 pair of shoes and a bag. quite a lot right!! the next time i shop with her i'll buy even more! spent a total of $103. wy win me by $16!!!!! HAHA. cause she still bought earrings and badges.

had macs for dinner! was so hungry by the time we i eat. wy only drank bubbletea -.- only had dinner at 8pm+ and i only ate mouthful of noodles in the morning.

i can't wait to shop again!!!!! :D

asshole dropped the daffadil at 11:03 PM [comment]

***

Friday, August 6, 2010

I WANNA WATCH BEAST ON 13AUG 2010 AT MARINA BAY!!! FUCKKKK. but the 3 ways i can get to watch them is
1. buy samsung galaxy S and win a pair of tickets -.-
2. buy the tickets from those who won - $200+++!! omgzxzx.
3. free standing - all i'll see is tiny beans jumping all over the place -.-

SO HOW :( i'm gonna try begging my mum to get the tickets for me. but i feel so bad!! :(

asshole dropped the daffadil at 4:04 PM [comment]

***

Thursday, August 5, 2010

SLEEPING IN 10min! gosh, slept on like 1hour++ last night -.- thank god i survived today. had PE in the morning and it was dance session! very fun i must say. cause i was dancing with a girl. hehe! watching coconut dance was sooooo hilarious. especially during hip rotation. was practically sleeping during maths. couldn't take it anymore since it was the last lesson and i the day was about to end. but i had art club so i finished cca at 6pm+ -.- BUT, STILL CANNOT GO HOME! gotta go bishan collect my wedges. wanyee cmi cause it was too late so lynette accompanied me. omg, we got lost in bishan. hehehe. we missed a stop and ended up at some academy. hahaha. bishan's so ulu can. by the time i collected my stuff it was almost 10pm alr.

having fishball noodle with wanyee at 7am tmr! time to sleep! bye!

asshole dropped the daffadil at 11:48 PM [comment]

***

awake at ridiculous hours! -.- that's because i suddenly recalled i have to show mdm (i forgot her name) our chinese proj tmr, and it's undone yet. so i had to compile all the videos tgt. heck, dont care about subtitles alr.

i'm still happy over what happened ytd :D

asshole dropped the daffadil at 1:39 AM [comment]

***

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

i had a joyous day! it was totally unlike what i predicted to be. i cried 2 times in school and i thank everyone for it :D THANKS FOR THE PRESENTS TOO (:

& i realised there's so many 3rd aug babies. there's this blogger yinagoh, nana, wilson, and myself. more than enough ppl! HAHA. okay tata :D

asshole dropped the daffadil at 10:25 PM [comment]

***

Monday, August 2, 2010

just another slightly more than an hour! hmm. i'm feeling much better alr. thanks to some realllyyyyyyy nice peeps (:

but just when my mood gets better, someone poured wet blanket on me by saying that we're merely strangers. so that's how it is all along... i should just stop living in denial :(

asshole dropped the daffadil at 10:41 PM [comment]

***

been having a very bad day :( and i'm still up at such unearthly hours, when i have school tmr. gotta wake up at 5.30am :( i'm really touched by my mum and granaunt today. though what they did may seem to be small things. but i'm still thankful for it.

i haven't felt good for the past few days. instead i've been crying over small happenings/nothing everyday. i'd better not burst into tears tmr in school. i hope people would rmb what day 3rd aug is :( i'm not looking forward to birthday this year. but still, the person i want most to wish me happy birthday have alr done so, though there's still one more day to the actual day... i really appreciate it and am glad, though it only made me felt better for awhile (:

asshole dropped the daffadil at 1:44 AM [comment]

***

Sunday, August 1, 2010

though ytd was quite enjoyable, something happened in the morning to make me feel damn fucked up. i thought seeing f.cuz would erase the unhappiness i had(usually would), but no eh! i told wanyee, rachel and qian ru about it. they all told me they would feel super angry too. but i dont really wanna tell those peeps in my school about it, cause i told the person that made me upset "no lah, it's ok". so if i were to complain... it's so bitchy right. but i was so angry and upset that i cried :(

and idk what i'm supposed to study for now. seriously, i'm so short of time. it's like what, 5 weeks to promos? not enough time, seriously. cause i'm lagging behind a few chapts for every subj. i feel sososo depressed now.

i doubt i'll have a happy birthday this year :(

asshole dropped the daffadil at 3:35 PM [comment]

***

OMG I'M BACK FROM SUNDOWN FEST!! WOOOHOOOOO. CAN'T DESCRIBE HOW HIGH AND EXCITED I WAS WHEN I SAW F.CUZ, ESP KAN!!! (Y) unfortunately, i only managed to take one video out of 5 songs they sang, which is jiggy in korean. cause my cam batt flat :( kay its ok!! I BELIEVE F.CUZ FANS OUT THERE WOULD UPLOAD THEM ON YOUTUBE (:

KAN IS FUCKING HOT LAH. he was perspiring, and was in sleeveless vest! his arm was sososo muscular and wetttttttt. omfg! then as he dance, his sweat was like spraying all over lah. fuck, i wanted to drool. hahaha. my expression was like --> :O mouth big big!! they sang jiggy in korean, idk what song (think boy meets girl), another idk what song, NO ONE!!!!, and JIGGY IN CHINESE (Y). i was singing along to both jiggy-s and no one like a siao ding dong! the feeling was darn shiok alright :D ONCE IN A LIFETIME CHANCE MAN. if they were to have a concert of their own in sg, i'll definitely buy a seat in the first row!

KANNNNNNNNNN (Y)

asshole dropped the daffadil at 12:49 AM [comment]

***